What you need to smile: My Guide

It's 12:30 am and I am wide awake.
Listening to the songs I have written two to three years ago. Back when I covered myself with problems and stress. I am close to my parents but I always avoid sharing my problems to them because they already have so much stress from work and I didn't want to add some more.

I always faced my problems alone but of course with the help of my closest friends. Flashback. Let's go back to my high school days because those were the worse and at the same time the best years of my life. That's when I learned that friends come and go but those who will love you for who you are will forever stay. It was when I had my first love, it was when I experienced my first heartbreak and it was the time when I fell to complete anger and depression.

When I was in high school, No one could ever tell that I was in so much pain that time. I was always happy and me and my friends were always laughing but the truth is, well yeah I was happy because me and my friends had really fun moments together but there were moments when I felt alone, when I felt betrayed, when I felt pressure, when I felt self-pity, when I felt anger.

I would be dumb and dishonest if I will say that I never had any night when I cried myself to sleep. I would be dumb and dishonest if I will deny that I fell inlove with  someone from school. And that I think is the FIRST STEP on your journey to happiness. You should be able to accept the reality and accept who you were before and what you did.

Yes. I was a good student before. I always strive to be on top. I was always active but the thing is. that was just a part of me. No one (except my closest friends) knew I was going through. No one knew that I was feeling so down when I act as if I was in wonderland. I was a bitch in covers. I wanted to shout but I always tried to cover my mouth. I was battling against myself.

Maybe people will tell me "oh you're too young to say those stuff.." or "oh you haven't seen the world yet". Well, if you are one of those people, then this is my blog and I will post anything I would want to share.

As the title of this post suggests, I want to share how I could smile today despite the things I have gone through before.

Well number ONE. I have said it before. ACCEPT REALITY. ACCEPT THE NEW AND OLD YOU. 

New Me

Number TWO would be GO FAR AWAY... SO FAR FAR AWAY... I'm not saying that you should get on a plane and change your citizenship. What I mean is learn to separate from the source that makes you feel down. Learn to look away so that you will be able to see that there are better things to worry about than those silly problems you THOUGHT were so DAMN important during high school. Learn to start walking away. Some people might say that you are a coward who runs away from her problems but you are not. You are simply giving yourself the chance to build a new life for yourself so that you can fix yourself. 

 I have been living in Manila for three years now ( Well technically not 3 years because I go home when I get the chance to but yes let's just round it up :D ) and I realized that because I deviated my attention to other things, such as organization, studies and trying to survive in the big city,  I was able to "see the ZOOMED OUT picture". I was able to realize that THAT problem that was bothering me during high school was dumb. I was too absorbed by the problem that I was unable to see that there were better things in store for me.

Number THREE. This is my favorite part. Everyone says to "NOT LOOK AT OLD STUFF/CONVERSATION/ ANYTHING" that would make you remember all the shitty problems you had before. BUT I actually would RECOMMEND THAT YOU DO THIS (After you finish step two of course :)) If you were able to successfully finish step one and two and then you do this, I would guarantee you that you will have the best time of your life.

 I will not deny that  you would cry a little bit but make the best out of this and try to understand your enemies and also criticize what you did. Because you matured over the years, you will see that you will see your flaws and understand your enemy before more.

Well based from my experience. As I mentioned at the start of this post, I was listening to my songs and DAMN I laughed and cried at the same time. It made me realize that I let small stuff affect me so much. I also read (a year ago) old conversations and I do admit that I was a bitch before and I was mean but I hope they would understand my actions before because I felt "fooled".
This step is CRUCIAL. For me, you could never go to the next step when you are unable to conquer this. But to tell you honestly this is the most crucial and the most difficult one of the steps. so BE WARNED.

For the last step.. Well... Continue to MOVE FORWARD. Dont let the past drag you but DON'T LEAVE IT BEHIND because always remember that the past you produced the present you who'll become the future you and if one is missing or incomplete, then possibly, you will not live life to the fullest.

So that's it folks!  I hope that this post didnt bore you to death ahaha XD This a long one but I poured my heart into this so I hope you learned something from this.. :)

If you are in a middle of problems and you need someone to talk to , just click the About Me tab up there !!! and chat me on facebook or mention me on twitter so that ill be able to get notifications if you do tweet me :)

Good mornight people :) Hope you SMILE through your problems :) Always remember.. when life gives you lemons.. then itago mo pwede yang gamitin sa sawsawan :)

Credits to Google Image for the pics :)
xoxo
HappyLovedCaredfor

are we really FREE?

     Today we are celebrating our country's independence from foreign hands. Many years ago, our heroes shed tears and blood for us to attain such freedom. Many were sacrificed, hurt and lost for the sake of having this independence.

     As we celebrate this glorious holiday, let us ask ourselves... "Are we really free?" from the hands of the powerful? 

     I think WE ARE NOT.

     I have been living in this country for 18 years and I could say that we really have no freedom. Even if we SEEM free, we are not. We have been blinded by "sugar-coated" speeches that make us think we are even if we are not. 

     Yes. This is a rant. My rant and I hope as you read this you would bear with me and have an open-mind. 

     For a couple of weeks now, our government is in a ruckus; actually not just the government but the whole country itself. From the pork barrel scam to the firing in some places of our country from inefficiency of the  current administration to price increase of our basic needs. 

     I have so many things to share so I'll share it one by one XD

     First, I would like to share to you my view about the pork barrel scam. While this controversy was fresh before, I actually was really interested in it and I was actually intrigued because I thought that "Wow someone is actually trying to stop the corruption present in our society" but as the case progresses, DAMN! it is just VERY disappointing. OK I know that I dont know who is corrupt or not but SERIOUSLY? I really think  that "LIST" is as what other people call it "LUTO". 

     No offense to Mrs. Napoles but you really have some guts trying to be a "state witness". As far as I know state witnesses are the people who benefited the LEAST from the crime. So in that case, how can you be a state witness? 

    People, wake up. I mean seriously. Do you really think that list is LEGIT?

     I am gonna be honest.I actually dont "fancy" the current administration and here are some of my reasons:

     Number one: What the hell are they doing? Ok. before you react, hear me out. If I was the leader of this country, I would rather focus on making a difference and what I mean by that is do programs or projects that would actually HELP the country and not focusing on OLD scams wherein the money is already gone. Why not just feed the malnourished, try to make jobs for the unemployed, help the OFW with their problems such as abuse. You know, those kind of things. 

     I am not making this post about my rants about the current administration so let us just leave it at that :) "PEOPLE FIRST BEFORE THOSE TIME CONSUMING AND WORTHLESS CASES na sure naman kaming LUTO na"

     Number two: What is our country turning into? Yes people. We are starting to be transformed into AMERICANS. Not that I dont like US but i really think that we can never be free if we act like dogs that follow what they do. I mean yes, our economy is far lower than theirs but DAMN. Our country is richer than many countries if we look at our location and our resources. Let us stop being "sunud-sunuran". At eto pa. I know it is ironic that I will rant about this in ENGLISH but here it goes. I heard some "news" that the Filipino subject in college will be trashed. MY GOD. Why would you NOT TEACH the filipinos the language og Filipinos. I mean seriously? I know english is widely used that's why im writing this post in english but OUR LANGUAGE IS A SIGN OF OUR INDEPENDENCE and then we will NOT teach it in college? So ano? pagtapos ng mga nasa kolehiyo puro english speaking na? 

     I have visited a few countries and I really was astonished.. You know why? because almost no one knew how to speak english. They know their national language. The speak using their national language. NOW THAT is an independent country. Wag na tayong magpaalipin . Please.. Nakakaawa na nga tayo mas kakaawain pa tayo lalo. :(((

     Number three: What is wrong with those appointed people? I am not saying that ALL the people appointed by the administration is "inefficient" and crazy but SOME are. I have seen in the news that regarding the transport, some actually thought of offering a bus to the MRT users so that it would be beneficial for them. At first I was pleased with the idea because the MRT is always "FULL" of people so that would lessen the crowd but a few days after I learned from the news that if you want to ride the said bus, you still have to have an MRT ticket O.o Yung totoo? So ano? pupunta ka pa sa MRT station para  bumili ng card tapos bababa ka na naman para sumabay sa bus? Oh God. Please help these people think their plans through. Nagmumukha lang silang tanga :(((((( And please... higher people in the administration.. Salain niyo naman muna ang mga projects before you approve it hindi yung basta may maproject lang.

     Marami pa pero mahaba na kaya tama na yung tatlo XD ahahha napagod kakatype XD

     The second topic I  want to discuss is our "flawed" fight for change. I have seen many rallies, protest and other movements during my stay here in Manila. For some of these movements, I would support some but most I would not. 

     I am not pinpointing any movement but this is for all who join these kind of stuff. Please, THINK BEFORE YOU JOIN. I have seen strikes wherein people stay outdoors and they dont eat or they dont sleep. I mean C'mon people. And also I saw a movement that was against "foreign invasion" but IRONICALLY, the people in the movement were wearing clothes made from FOREIGN countries. I mean If you are gonna start a movement, make sure you BELIEVE and SUPPORT your mission by heart and not just by word. You think the government would think of what you are doing? Well this is my opinion but for me I would prefer LETTING THE MASS SEE that even non powerful people, such as ourselves could help others... Para sa akin mas gusto ko pang makita ako ng mga nasa taas na tumutulong sa iba dahil BAKA SAKALI maiisip nila na "Ayy yan pala dapat ginagawa ko" Diba? You dont need to starve yourself or to beat yourself up to get the freedom and change that we aspire. Show them that even if we are regular people, we are catalyst of change.

     Third topic, I address this to all people, Please, if you can, DO NOT DEPEND on the government. 

     I am not saying that everyone in the government are liars, mean, evil and other negatives things and I AM NOT saying this because I know a few that are in the government but because it is reality. Mayroon naman talagang nagsisilbi sa bayan and the problem now is THEY ARE OUTNUMBERED. Kaya sana instead of electing someone kasi may "suhol" , next election, pag-isipan napo natin.. 

     I know it is so ironic that I am ranting about this stuff but still believe in the government. There is still time for change and I HOPE and PRAY that the change we are waiting will be within our reach soon.

     This is because, I believe that if we start the change on ourselves, then our whole society, our whole NATION our whole WORD will change. 

I'll just leave this post with that saying :) Happy Independence day mga Kababayan! :) Let's start the change :) and ask ourselves today this question " Are we really free?"


Credits to google Images for the pics :)
Xoxo
HappyLovedCaredfor

Time to wake up Maria!

Just to be clear, before you continue reading please attach to your mind that I have nothing against women because  DUH i am a woman.. i just want to kinda make things clearer for us (women) to be fair to men. AND the things i posted here are not applicable to ALL WOMEN just so you know :)

I have heard/read from women that "men are mean/bad", "all men are the same", "men are liars" and many more negative stuff about men. 

First of all, NOBODY TOLD YOU TO TRY THEM ALL. Realtalk, you cant say that they are all the same if you havent been with every man in the world. Please stop generalizing your opinion. If you got hurt by your man, dont hate every man on earth. Maybe he was just not meant for you and
you were too EXCITED to have someone in your life that you ended up being with the wrong one. Every person on earth is different so dont go out in public saying that they are all the same because THEY ARE NOT.

Second, DONT BE SUCH A DUMBASS. Ok this is my opinion so you're free to criticize this post. For me, most of the women who post or say negative stuff about men are PITY and FAME WHORES. Seriously they post/say these stuff so that it creates commotion and every girl says "its ok you'll find another" and every guy says "i will never do that to you.. Maybe im your THE ONE". Please give people a break from your silly attempt to become famous cuz your starting to look desperate. Ask a hug from you parents cuz that would make you feel better than annoying people for likes. If you want to find another man, then look for one.. Dont pretend to be HEART BROKEN and bitter so that men will swarm towards you.

Third, (and this is the most crucial). PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, LOOK AT YOURSELF FIRST. I'm not saying that its your fault you got hurt.. Maybe it was your man's fault maybe it was because of you.. But who cares.. Its your problem.. The thing is, before you tell men that they are liars and bad, look at what you have done, we're you the best lover? Did you support him with his dreams? Have you given your time? In short, WERE YOU A GIRL WHO IS WORTH LOVING? lets get real, dont expect a man to let you be his princess if you treat him like a slave. Treat him like a prince and HOPEFULLY if he loves you he'll treat you like a princess.. 

Tama na yung puro women chuchu and all that shiizz.. There are men out there who are nice, loyal, honest and all that good things one woman needs. You just gotta have an open mind and an open heart to find the one for you. DONT BE BITTER. That will never get you anywhere.

ALSO (i should add) there are also men who are TOTAL d**ks so may Karma be with them.. And the whole world hopes for their exile :3

To end this, please bear in mind ... "Its not just about YOU its about the BOTH of you" (this is for both men and women)

If you want to personally talk to me, check the About me tab and add me on facebook :)

 just be nice and i can be your friend :) 

Credits to google image for the pics :)

Xoxo

HappyLovedCaredfor

Halfway There 💗

Its been two years now since I started my college journey here in Manila. As of today, I survived 6 terms out of 13.

Two years of super time-demanding projects, migraine-triggering quizzes, super annoying classmates who SUPER cheat (its ok if its minor cheating but for major cheaters ... WHYY PEOPLE WHYY??), fishbowler profs, INSANELY super-cooled rooms and all other negative stuff that I have failed to mention. Despite those, I also have nice experiences during those two years.

I joined IMES. Well this might sound corny but I love them. People understand each other and we treat each other like family. You can ask help from upperclassmen (as long as you don't call them ate/kuya) ahahhaa about academics or anything under the sun. Taking the risk of studying in Manila alone was a big step for me because we didn't really have relatives in Manila. That is why IMES became my family. Although I'm not close to all of them, they made me feel that I was a part of something and that something is the thing that made me feel comfortable at school.

I met my college buds! Talk about sticky but we are sticky as glue :) Ryna Bato, Bernadette Aranguren and our newest bud Benedict Depamaylo. Besides from making sure that we have the same classes and panicking every enrollment when one or two gets a red X after clicking the last button during enrollment, we sure are clingy to one another ahahha. :D We may have different personalities but we get along very fine. Some of us LOVE vegetables while others HATE them. Some of us love dogs while one loves cats :).

                     

I learned to have fun on my own. Eating alone, singing in karaokes alone, going to world of fun aline.. These are just some stuff i do alone... But before you feel pity for me, i'm just gonna tell you DONT. I am actually fine being alone.. When im eating alone i spend less and more for myself, when i sing in karaokes alone i dont feel scared/hesitant cuz the people around dont know me anyway, when i go to world of fun alone i can play ANY game ANY time.. Being alone is sad and lonely but it has its perks.. Maybe i got used to that lifestyle ahahaha

                        

                       

My everyday life is a freakin' a+mazing journey. Many people ask me how i survived everyday. Well, i live like its my last. I do the things i want, say the sings i want to say, eat what i want to eat, listen to whoever i want to listen to, ignore the people i dont like, help the people who need me, treat myself from time to time and just have the BEST time of my life every time.

So if you are like me. a 'probinsyana' girl living in a busy-ass city, then i say to you "BE STRONG" cuz your mama isnt at your side right now to do things for you and to protect you..TREASURE those people who value you and take care of you specially during rough times cuz if they stay during those times, then they must love you very much.

this post is quite long so thanks for reading until this part :) i love ya'll 

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