What you need to smile: My Guide

It's 12:30 am and I am wide awake.
Listening to the songs I have written two to three years ago. Back when I covered myself with problems and stress. I am close to my parents but I always avoid sharing my problems to them because they already have so much stress from work and I didn't want to add some more.

I always faced my problems alone but of course with the help of my closest friends. Flashback. Let's go back to my high school days because those were the worse and at the same time the best years of my life. That's when I learned that friends come and go but those who will love you for who you are will forever stay. It was when I had my first love, it was when I experienced my first heartbreak and it was the time when I fell to complete anger and depression.

When I was in high school, No one could ever tell that I was in so much pain that time. I was always happy and me and my friends were always laughing but the truth is, well yeah I was happy because me and my friends had really fun moments together but there were moments when I felt alone, when I felt betrayed, when I felt pressure, when I felt self-pity, when I felt anger.

I would be dumb and dishonest if I will say that I never had any night when I cried myself to sleep. I would be dumb and dishonest if I will deny that I fell inlove with  someone from school. And that I think is the FIRST STEP on your journey to happiness. You should be able to accept the reality and accept who you were before and what you did.

Yes. I was a good student before. I always strive to be on top. I was always active but the thing is. that was just a part of me. No one (except my closest friends) knew I was going through. No one knew that I was feeling so down when I act as if I was in wonderland. I was a bitch in covers. I wanted to shout but I always tried to cover my mouth. I was battling against myself.

Maybe people will tell me "oh you're too young to say those stuff.." or "oh you haven't seen the world yet". Well, if you are one of those people, then this is my blog and I will post anything I would want to share.

As the title of this post suggests, I want to share how I could smile today despite the things I have gone through before.

Well number ONE. I have said it before. ACCEPT REALITY. ACCEPT THE NEW AND OLD YOU. 

New Me

Number TWO would be GO FAR AWAY... SO FAR FAR AWAY... I'm not saying that you should get on a plane and change your citizenship. What I mean is learn to separate from the source that makes you feel down. Learn to look away so that you will be able to see that there are better things to worry about than those silly problems you THOUGHT were so DAMN important during high school. Learn to start walking away. Some people might say that you are a coward who runs away from her problems but you are not. You are simply giving yourself the chance to build a new life for yourself so that you can fix yourself. 

 I have been living in Manila for three years now ( Well technically not 3 years because I go home when I get the chance to but yes let's just round it up :D ) and I realized that because I deviated my attention to other things, such as organization, studies and trying to survive in the big city,  I was able to "see the ZOOMED OUT picture". I was able to realize that THAT problem that was bothering me during high school was dumb. I was too absorbed by the problem that I was unable to see that there were better things in store for me.

Number THREE. This is my favorite part. Everyone says to "NOT LOOK AT OLD STUFF/CONVERSATION/ ANYTHING" that would make you remember all the shitty problems you had before. BUT I actually would RECOMMEND THAT YOU DO THIS (After you finish step two of course :)) If you were able to successfully finish step one and two and then you do this, I would guarantee you that you will have the best time of your life.

 I will not deny that  you would cry a little bit but make the best out of this and try to understand your enemies and also criticize what you did. Because you matured over the years, you will see that you will see your flaws and understand your enemy before more.

Well based from my experience. As I mentioned at the start of this post, I was listening to my songs and DAMN I laughed and cried at the same time. It made me realize that I let small stuff affect me so much. I also read (a year ago) old conversations and I do admit that I was a bitch before and I was mean but I hope they would understand my actions before because I felt "fooled".
This step is CRUCIAL. For me, you could never go to the next step when you are unable to conquer this. But to tell you honestly this is the most crucial and the most difficult one of the steps. so BE WARNED.

For the last step.. Well... Continue to MOVE FORWARD. Dont let the past drag you but DON'T LEAVE IT BEHIND because always remember that the past you produced the present you who'll become the future you and if one is missing or incomplete, then possibly, you will not live life to the fullest.

So that's it folks!  I hope that this post didnt bore you to death ahaha XD This a long one but I poured my heart into this so I hope you learned something from this.. :)

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Good mornight people :) Hope you SMILE through your problems :) Always remember.. when life gives you lemons.. then itago mo pwede yang gamitin sa sawsawan :)

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xoxo
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